Today I´m going to a concert: RISE AGAINST! God, I am so happy! And I lost one pound! GREAT!

So girls, stay strong and don´t stress yourself! You will lose weight and you will look awesome. But it takes time! Don´t give up!

It´s a new month and maybe I got some new hope for a balanced and healthy life.

The last weeks were just horrible for me. Really! I was so tired, depressive and I ate so fucking much!!! It was like I wouldn´t exist…I just slept, cried and ate! This is not what I expectetd from my life. Maybe everyone has different wishes and goals for their life…But everybody wants to be pretty and happy, right? Everybody wants to have success and people, who loves you just the way you are.

I have awesome friends and a loving family, who loves me the way I am. But the problem is, that I can´t love myself. My body is so digusting fat and my depressions are just another black shadow of my soul.

I NEED TO CHANGE MY THOUGHTS. THEN I WILL CHANGE MY BODY AND I WILL BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY!!!

WE ALL DESERVE A HAPPY NEW LIFE! This month will change our lifes, if we work for it!

Tomorrow I´m going to clean my flat and I will clean my body! No food, just water and coffee! It´s my new beginning. Cleaning my body and cleaning my mind!